Created for Joy

 

“Joy is the serious business of heaven.” C.S. Lewis

I sway to the rythm of the music in a darkened sanctuary lit only by candles. Around me are signs of celebrationlifted voices, a few raised hands, even the occasional giddy laugh of a small child overcome by God-sized emotions.

I sigh, sensing the weariness of the day roll off my back. Feeling lighter, a smile tugs at the edges of my lips. Joy begins to percolate from somewhere deep inside me, rising…rising….

Then a feeling of discomfort slams down the lid. Feeling happy in church? That’s not the way it’s supposed to work, right? The Christian life is seriousit’s about the cross, suffering, and just making it through this crazy world until we can get to heaven.

But the joy is insistent, powerful. I can sense it knocking and asking to be let out, or in, or perhaps both. I close my eyes and ask God, “What does this mean? Why am I so often more comfortable with difficulties than delights? Why can I receive suffering from your hands and yet struggle with celebrations?”

Then it occurs to me that all those feelingssadness, despair, discouragement–only exist this side of heaven. They are actually more “worldly” than happiness, joy, laughter. When all is said and done, the darker emotions will disappear but the lighter ones I sometimes shun will remain.

When I realize this, a floodgate opensrushing, pouring, gleefully gliding over my soul. I sing, smile, rejoice with my whole heart. I feel happy, free, full.

And in that fullness I finally find what I’ve been looking for all along…the presence of the One who created me for joy.

About Holley

About Holley

Wall Street Journal Bestselling Author and Life Coach

I like humans, words, and good coffee. And I’d love to help you beat what’s holding you back, become all you’re created to be, and kick butt for the greater good.

Cheering you on,

Holley

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