God surprised me the other night. Does He ever do that to you?
As lights in the sanctuary flickered low we paused for a moment to pray. My pastor said, “Ask God to show you what you need to see in your heart.”
I waited to hear a flaw, a struggle, a secret sin unknown even to me. But the words that drifted into my heart were the last ones I expected to hear…
“Stop doubting My love.”
My head snapped up.
Stop doubting My love?
Could that be right?
Yet as I glanced at my husband sitting next to me, I knew it was true. The moments in our marriage that grieve him most deeply are when, for some reason or another, I find it hard to believe he really loves me.
It’s not about him–it’s about me. Insecurities. Past wounds. Believing I have to be perfect.
I began to understand. After all, I’m the bride of Christ say the sacred pages.
Wouldn’t doubting His love grieve Him too?
I whispered a prayer of sorry, of receiving the love that’s already mine, of opening my heart more fully to the One who pursues me relentlessly. And you too.
You are loved.
More than you know.
More than you see.
More than you’ve even dared to dream.
We can stop doubting.
We can be secure in Love.
By the time the lights went back up in the sanctuary, I felt all lit up on the inside too.
Full of joy.