You don’t have to say “I’m fine” anymore…

Pillow photo by dichohecho (flickr creative commons) I read the words on a day when I want to pull the covers back over my head. Surely I’m the only one who ever has those days.

And then there it is…

“I believed in you, so I said, ‘I am deeply troubled, Lord.’ ” Ps 116:10

I think of how I might say it…

“I believed in you, so I said, ‘I’m fine, just fine, Lord.’ ” 

A smile starts to catch the corner of my lips. I laugh at myself a little, at how I imagine the God who spoke the world into being can’t handle my emotions–all of them

So I climb out of bed and tell Him how I feel afraid and wonder if I have what it takes. I tell Him I wish I had more courage, more love, more time and energy. I tell Him all of it all day long.

I don’t fake a smile.

I don’t pretend it’s okay. 

Because I believe in Him.

It’s an act of faith, like a child running to her father and saying, “Daddy, it hurts!” What father would turn away? Not ours.

I climb into bed that night, tuck the sheets in around me, lay my head on the same pillow where it rested when I first read those words. I drift to sleep not fearing monsters under my bed (or inside my head) because I’m covered by grace and I know that He knows. 

All of it.

On days like this, it seems the sweetest miracle isn’t that I believe in Him.

It’s that He–impossibly, stubbornly–believes in me.

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About Holley

About Holley

Wall Street Journal Bestselling Author and Life Coach

I like humans, words, and good coffee. And I’d love to help you beat what’s holding you back, become all you’re created to be, and kick butt for the greater good.

Cheering you on,

Holley

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