I’m having a bit of blog block this week. I stare at the screen and try to think of something to say but nothing happens. I guess it’s one of the occupational hazards of being a writer. Occasionally the machinery (your brain) decides it’s had enough, thank you very much.
I think it could also be because I’m exhausted. If I had one of those low-gas warning lights like my car does, it would probably be on about 75% of the time. I realize this isn’t a healthy or especially helpful way to live. God and I have been having numerous conversations about that lately.
I actually just finished writing in my journal about it too. I was pondering how there are some truths of the Christian faith that are easy for me to accept, even if I don’t totally understand them. For example, the resurrection and heaven fall in this category. But there are others that have trouble getting from my head to my heart. The truth that I’m loved apart from what I do is at the top of the list.
So I wrote in my journal tonight…
Lord, I choose to believe you. I choose to believe you love me. I choose to believe you accept me. I choose to believe I’m your precious daughter. I choose to believe what you say about me even if in my flesh it doesn’t make sense or I don’t feel it emotionally. I choose to believe you.
Do any of you have books, studies, etc. to recommend about understanding God’s love and who are in Christ? I’d be forever grateful if you’d share those here. And I’d appreciate your prayers this week. I’m feeling pretty worn and weary right now.